memories to last a lifetime

2005-01-06T18:09:00.000-08:00

i miss you i miss you i miiiss yooouuu

2004-02-23T23:04:00.000-08:00

damn another day another argument ... im so sick of aLL the buLLsh*t ... i think i just need a decent amount of sLeep *bLah*

2004-02-08T00:24:00.000-08:00

damn i havent hit this mess up in a minute! hmmm *wink* new wish List {*edited*} - * - answer VII iversons - * - belt preferabLy brown - * - burberry weekend - * - chocolate-covered freeze-dried strawberries - * - dried fLavored seaweed - * - dory from finding nemo doLL - * - fLowers preferabLy orchids - * - LiL jon CD - * - Lip gLoss - * - Low cut air force ones size seven - * - khaki-coLored

2003-12-02T20:45:00.000-08:00

I S A A C r o b a g o F E L A R C A i s T H E b i g g e s t A S S H O L E o n T H E f a c e O F t h i s P L A N E T

2003-11-03T16:51:00.000-08:00

you know you Love someone when the mere thought of hurting them is enough to break your own heart

2003-10-15T23:04:00.000-07:00

damn bLogger Looks a Lot different than it Looked Last tyme i posted up in this beeatch =P heheh but yah i just got some things on my mynd that have been bothering me LateLy that i just wanted to put out there ... i hate how peopLe caLL me at random tymes of the day & i dont even know why the f*ck theyre caLLing & then when i ask them whats up they have nothing to f*ckin say so im paying f*ckin

2003-07-12T22:05:00.000-07:00

god imma f*ckin lose my mynd soon =S *bLaH* damn people teasing me and sh*t NOT COOL GUYS! booo *thumbs down* =( *sob* my triscuit is supposed to come back saturday i think? hmmm my daddy left yesterday for denver colorado but he got stuck in La for a long a$$ tyme cuz his flight left here hella later than scheduled so he missed his connecting flight in La so yah blah blah blah hes coming back

2003-07-09T08:27:00.000-07:00

*bLaH* xanga is down so imma bLoG on here hahah it IS bLoGGeR LoL hmmm the past day has been pure mental torture =( *tear* i dont know what else to do =( stacey orricos song "stuck" has been on repeat for like the past almost twelve hours now =S well not twelve hours straight but most of the six hour flight here and the two hour wait before the flight and the two hour drive from narita to yokota

2003-06-15T16:38:00.000-07:00

im HHHoooMMMeee YiPPee! *thumbs up* sayin goodbye to 1711 was... sad? i guess? hahah kinda... hmmm lots of memories =S LoL somethings i wouldve prefered not to happen... but... hahah but yah... it was an I N T E R E S T I N G year =) heheh the flight from san jo to narita was pretty ohkay i guess... nothing too special... i sat by this really nice japanese guy... when i came onto the plane i had

2003-06-05T22:55:00.000-07:00

SOME PEOPLE JUST F*CKIN PISS ME OFF aHHH =S *bLaH* i swear some people just needa learn to act their age! it hella pisses me off! its not even funny! they try and act all f*ckin "cute" and sh*t and all theyre being is f*ckin annoying! girls especially! all the f*ckin whining and sh*t! it gets oLD! acting like a f*ckin ten-year old! when theyre f*ckin senior in high school almost graduating or a f

2003-06-03T21:03:00.000-07:00

WoW long time no post... imma bout to go watch MISS UNIVERSE! heheh =P GO MISS PHILIPPINES *wink* *thumbs up* =P and i just wanted to post this *wink* muahahah i miss my fruit =( sad sad sad You have an entrancing kiss. The kind that leaves your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling like he is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss that never lessens and always blows your partner away like

2003-05-14T01:18:00.000-07:00

you are gonna get a kick outta these edited excerpts from a conversation that i had with my MoMMy dearest: me: wheres her husband? my MoMMy: I don't know {*edited*} my MoMMy: .....a japanse lady!!! {*edited*} me: whos a japanese lady? my MoMMy: that's what she thinks the hubby is doing {*edited*} me: well its ohkay i think my boyfriend is messing around too me: but im ohkay here me: i got

2003-05-11T15:39:00.000-07:00

i LuuuV aLVaRo and ChRiS *muah* you guys are THE BESTEST BESTEST BESTEST EVER! heheh {*pardon my poor grammar *blushes*} this week is dedicated to you guys =D WooHoo *high five* cuz you got mad skills like that =P go 'head! heheh i was having such a crappy week for the same reasons *pause* that thought ends there... im in too good of a mood =) well im too lazy to type all the details but heres

2003-05-01T07:40:00.000-07:00

...i should have known this would happen... *DuH* KaT its You for godsake! *bLaH* my sucky luck has kicked into my life ONCE AGAIN *gRRR* i ALWAYS have terrible luck when it comes to situations like these Booo *thumbs down* *sigh* i was so frustrated by the situation last night that i didnt even wanna talk to his a$$... but the annoyance of him signing on and signing off every few minutes was

2003-04-28T22:53:00.000-07:00

im gonna die! someone PLEASE save me from the insanity percolating through my brain! AHHH =T *sobs* i HATE not being able to do something about this situation *cries some more* =S im helpless and i do NOT like it AT ALL! SOMEONE PLEASE do SOMETHING! i need sleep *yawn*

2003-04-25T19:51:00.000-07:00

hey kathryn ann... i'm invading your blog... hee hee... goodness, everyone and their mom's are getting a xanga all of a sudden... well, lorna*caca has a blog... and if you ever wanna know what's going on with her and me you can go to www.lorna-caca.blogspot.com ... the end =D

2003-04-25T17:09:00.000-07:00

i got a XANGA guys! WooHoo!

2003-04-24T14:29:00.000-07:00

thinking: damn another interesting week without my baybee hmmm heheh yaaah... i swear EVERYTIME that boy leaves to go somewhere and im not able to talk to him... SOMETHING ALWAYS happens! heheh... some good some bad... but im thinking... mostly good =) heheh anywho... friday was girls night out part one... went out to dinner and a movie... no more details =P hahah it was girls night out and thats

2003-04-21T00:46:00.000-07:00

GiDDy wow =D {*oh note before i forget: i apologize for that post down there... i was venting and everythings a-ohkay now *thumbs up* heheh =) WooHoo*} anywho i was saying... this weekend proved to myself {*and to michelle*} that i still got game =P sorry i know... i was proud of myself this weekend... the cute waiters at joe's crab shack... the guys at dennys... the miramar base security guys...

2003-04-19T12:13:00.000-07:00

FED UP im SICK and TIRED of all this BULLSHIT!!! all you guys out there needa learn to keep your damn dicks in your pants! *ugh* im so frustrated and irritated... all the crap that i hear about... the sh*t that i see... witnessing the things that go on around me... and what's worse is A LOT of them dont even f*cking REALIZE that theyre doing shit wrong! just a lil message to all you guys out

2003-04-17T10:43:00.000-07:00

fact of the week: SEX is a natural antihistamine =D our MMW professor comes back today... shes the coolest... to get the halls attention at the beginning of class she yells "SEX" and everyone gets quiet... shes so cute hahah... my allergies were killing me yesterday... i thought i was gonna die... *NoNa* said i have SARS hahah dork... he offered to cure me from my deadly illness hahah Booo why

2003-04-16T09:24:00.000-07:00

ATTENTION: a PICTURE link has been added below! theyre mostly old pictures... i kept forgetting to upload newer ones... and now my intro period is over and it wont let me upload anymore =( booo! ENJOY =D

2003-04-16T06:26:00.000-07:00

WooHoo my day has started off ALL RIGHT =D ive been talking to my booty-cutie a lot online lately and his friends... i swear the things that boy says... and the things his friends say... makes me wonder *blushes* i dont know... whatever... we pick our housing tomorrow =) WooHoo! then i was talking to some of my girls about some sh*t that was pissing me off {*imma kick her a$$ man! hahah take

2003-04-14T05:33:00.000-07:00

the end of a GREAT week i found this past week full of great things... lots of smiles... lots of laughs... lots of pleasant surprises... saturday: spent most of the day in chula vista for my cousins bday topped off with a movie at night... a unintended very sad movie... but the funny part was that it was supposed to be funny but for reasons left to be unstated we found it incredibly depressing

2003-04-04T10:07:00.000-08:00

one of the very few times in my life when i feel helpless *sigh* it hit me... this morning... i finally cried about it... hahah my emotions are on delay mode or something hahah =T it always takes a while for things to process =S *bLaH* yes you can pity me now... jeez... hahah i was talking to one of my girls earlier... crying gets you pity points... LoL the joys of being a girl *rolls eyes* now

2003-04-04T08:40:00.000-08:00

what the hell?!? check out my horoscope for yesterday: It's purposely Thursday, Capricorn! A partnership problem disappears as passion and understanding come to the front. Your relationship gets a higher priority in the life of your partner and companionship is positively augmented. thats a load of shit *bLaH*

2003-04-04T01:06:00.000-08:00

if you love something let it go... eTc eTc eTc... yall know the rest one of my favorite "getting-to-know-you" questions is: if you could have one superpower, what would it be? and each and every time i answer: the ability to read minds... this situation is PERFECT to have an ability like that... guys complain all the time that "girls should come with manuals" "we never know what youre thinking"

2003-03-30T21:17:00.000-08:00

*sigh* who knew... *gah* i SOMEONE ANYONE knew this would happen *grrr* screw you =( *sigh* everyone reading this: i am being totally honest here: i do NOT regret what i did... i HAD to do it... its the only way id know what i know now... and that knowledge is worth so much to me... because now i know i can move on with my life... but... =( unfortunately its kinda thrown another aspect of my life

2003-03-28T20:05:00.000-08:00

hi kat... i just wanted to say hola... 'cause yeah... i haven't gone here in a long time... lol... but yeah... jenny's baby shower tomorrow... fun stuff... kat why do you have porn on your blog???... my goodness... LoL... just kidding... alright.. gonna go now... i'll talk to you later, sweetie*pie =D ... love you... mmmwah!

2003-03-18T18:04:00.000-08:00

hahah check this out {*got it from faye's site*} MEDIUM What kind of ANIME BOOBS do you have? brought to you by Quizilla interesting stuff heheh =P awww poor meeshy took it... she got "fLaT" =P hahah awww how sad heheh sorry its funny though cuz we're always comparing our boobs and mine are significantly bigger than hers... think A and C hmmm yes heheh =P what the hell?!? SLUTY BITCH Woo! You

2003-03-17T14:15:00.000-08:00

i cant leave you alone and i know im living wrong but i cant let you go WoW! =D that's all i can say... ive havent smiled this much in a LONG time =D i took my chem final this morning at 8 and i was up most of the night studying {*and chatting online =P heheh*} i was working on like 2-3 hours of sleep but a majority of the time i was taking my test i was smiling... hahah =P i know im retarded =P

2003-03-15T23:14:00.000-08:00

i HATE YOU you STUPID little BITCH! i want you OUT OF MY LIFE and i dont want to have ANYTHING to do with YOU! shit, all youve done is cause fucking DRAMA!

2003-03-10T20:12:00.000-08:00

note: shout-outs have been updated AGAIN hahah

2003-03-10T14:54:00.000-08:00

...being unproductive... damn you freshman 15! hahah *sigh* just got back from my run... well not JUST got back... but yah... came back... worked out some more to the dvd my daddy dearest bought me =) {*i love my daddy he spoils me =D heheh*} now the computer screen has distracted me once again... heheh... i love seeing the blinking windows on my screen when i get back from being away... well...

2003-03-10T00:11:00.000-08:00

...saturday night... gah dang *dreamy look* last night was AWESOME thas all imma say *sigh* PANTY-DROPPERS! dont hate on 'em... you just jealous cuz you aint spittin game! suckah! hahah... damn haters! LoL some guys are just more "GIFTED" than others =P hahah *sigh* that mess had me smiling the rest of the night {*CLEAN UP CREW*} and even right before i passed out when i went to bed... and in the

2003-03-06T04:58:00.000-08:00

...this sh*t is getting RIDICULOUS... i feel bad for doing something i feel was wrong... i get b*tched at for trying to appease the situation... then i get b*tched at some more because i felt stupid after getting b*tched the first time... i just dont understand why people do certain things they do... i supposedly dont understand the whole situation... *sigh* well if i dont know the whole story {*

2003-03-05T23:12:00.000-08:00

...frustrated...dizzy...confused... i try my hardest to be there for everyone... and when i say everyone... i mean EVERYONE... no matter how poorly we get along... im ALWAYS here to listen... im a shoulder to cry on... a sponge absorbing all the b*tching about other people... all the complaints... all the venting... i dont mind it... i really dont... i LOVE being there for people... i LOVE the

2003-03-01T21:23:00.000-08:00

Gail: i cant stress enough the fact that i would NEVER do and i never thought of doing this to you on purpose... it wasnt/isnt intentional in ANY way shape or form... you're a friend... and you've always been a sweetheart to me... i never meant to hurt you... if i'd had known... things would be WAY different... but i didnt... and i cant stress how sorry i am about it all... but yah... ive been

2003-02-27T22:45:00.000-08:00

...i have NEVER felt like such a b*tch before... i am SOOO~~~OOO SORRY =( i would have NEVER meant for this to happen =( if i would have known that you still felt the way you did for him {*or still do*} i would have NEVER let our friendship progress to the level it has reached... im SORRY =( truly... honestly... i am =( i would NEVER do this to a friend... but... *sigh* never say never... cuz

2003-02-27T16:31:00.000-08:00

i have the BESTest boyfriend EVER!

2003-02-17T03:10:00.000-08:00

random thoughts and stolen phrases i will start this post off by stealing some stuff from aimee's blog... Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesnt. You cant tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own when you least suspect it or even when you dont want it

2003-02-12T13:37:00.000-08:00

a message to all those who've fallen for a friend i was talking to one of my girl's today about those guys that just get to you... they're awesome friends and they're always there for you when you need them and can put a smile on your face and brighten your day... you finally come to realize that you want this guy to be more than just your friend... unfortunately he doesnt always feel the same

2003-02-02T20:53:00.000-08:00

wow... i havent done THIS in FOREVER! =P GAME SEBENTEE-POR! LoL You live in a House. You're married to {*censored*}. <-- think... *they must have me on markdown* You drive a Lexus RX300. Your car is the color ReD. <-- dooopeness! hahah You live in the state JaPaN. <-- that is not a state ??? hahah Your honeymoon is GeRMaNy. <-- WEINERS! Your occupation is a ReaLToR. <-- no one-der i have a nice

2003-02-02T12:15:00.000-08:00

...these have been the worst, most depressing days ever... i dont know exactly when this trek of depression and petty annoyances began but ill just begin with thursday... it wasnt a bad morning... saw **a**o* always puts a smile on my face... i dont really remember much of the rest of the day... except that night... it hurts so bad talking to certain people =( i was delighted to see that he IMed

2003-01-29T16:32:00.000-08:00

Oh, Bears Are Flying! Get Keith My Tranquilizer! Run Now, Suckahs! {a mnemonic for the spectral sequence of stars {mich's homework hahah}}

2003-01-27T17:16:00.000-08:00

OMIGOSH i have THE BEST boyfriend EVER =) hahaha =D heheh *big smile* he's the best! "he's good i can tell" {LiLo aND sTiTcH} muahahah *sigh* yhup he's great =D hmmm havent really blogged lately... too lazy... too busy... whatever... friday was tons of fun... went to spirit night with the girls... we got 3rd =( boo! but its better than last year... last year they got 5th out of 5! hahaha! so we

2003-01-23T16:16:00.000-08:00

heeey check out what my name means: Your Heart Number is 2 Marriage and other close relationships will be extremely important to you. You have a strong need for peace and harmony in your life and are liable to be very self-sacrificing where the needs of others are concerned. Your Personality Number is 1 Which lends you a strong character and makes you a natural leader. You may be somewhat

2003-01-22T01:54:00.000-08:00

babe, you mean so much to me, more than i ever think you'll understand... ive never felt this way about anyone else and i just want you to know that... youre different from every other guy ive been with... youre better... in so many ways... youve always been there for me through everything... and i love you for that... thank you so much... i miss you like mad... *muah*

2003-01-20T02:30:00.000-08:00

pretty interesting and fun weekend... {*cliff notes version*} saturday: went to UTC in the morning with mich: shopped and got my ears pierced; grocery shopping at ralphs; beach with andrea and mich; spent the night dancing around andrea's room {too much fun =D hahah} sunday: major room cleaning; went with lex, renel, nelvin, and pam to in and out then fashion valley; went to my uncle's house in

2003-01-15T07:34:00.000-08:00

a humongous thank you to everyone who's wished me a happy birthday: Lex {all day yesterday because i was already 18 in japan} Jesse {thank you for remembering and offering to chill with me today heheheh yay i can vote hahah and tristan's the coolest =) hahah} Jonavi {the email out of the blue when i havent heard from you in all eternity} Nelvin {twice: once through lex then again when i finally

2003-01-15T05:21:00.000-08:00

*sigh* my first blog as a legal adult =T wow... what to say... 17... what a year =P hahah... that birthday was the best ever i remember... spent time with friends and family... even though my wonderful friends picked on me the whole frickin day of my bday party! hahahah but s'all good... i think i was going through my bailey phase then... when through A LOT of phases for the next couple of months

2003-01-15T00:18:00.000-08:00

Hehhee woah this is kewl. Princess Kat let me have the rite to post somthin on her most awesomest bloggy page hehehe. Thank u, Mahalo plenty, Arigato gozaimas (heheh remember that princess lol thanx for the little lessons in japanese), Muchos Gracias, Marameng Salamat, heheh check that out thank u in 5 different languages LOL. and wat better way to put my first officially bloggy post on her

2002-12-28T19:11:00.000-08:00

hahah check out my horoscope for friday... Jealousy is an issue, as a person you imagined as a likely partner will seem quite content with someone you consider to be a rival. LoL party started off hella sucky... but then it got MUCH better... much love to the guys... they're ALWAYS there to make me smile and cheer me up... even though like seventy-five percent of the time they're picking on me...

2002-12-22T06:39:00.000-08:00

*gah* only one other person right now could possibly know how i feel... {i appreciate the balcony talk, girl} i didnt think id end up in the same situation as her... but in a sense... i am... i hurts so bad when the feelings arent mutual... tonight especially was torture... but i couldnt bring myself to get up and leave when everyone else had gone... he was so close... yet so far... and i wasnt

2002-12-18T16:45:00.000-08:00

ive been through a LOT of sh*t in my life... and ive learned and grown from it all... all the experiences and all the heartbreak {and ive been through a lot of heartbreak} but NOTHING compares to the way i feel right now... ive always been proud to say that something like this has never happened to me... but... unfortunately... i can no longer be proud of what i had... i never doubted it would

2002-12-18T02:10:00.000-08:00

*ugh* i'm losing my mind =S hahah the only person keeping me fractionally sane right now is francis heheh =P WAY TOO MUCH has happened in what... TWO DAYS!!! *gah* hopefully things level out aka become fractionally "normal" {hahah whatever THAT means in yoko-loko aka dramaville hahah} once friday night comes around... *gah* once school/class isnt an issue for everyone... i think i'll be good to

2002-12-13T21:25:00.000-08:00

hahaha notice how the bold and italics were nearly nonexistent in the middle and end of the post......... hahaha got lazy =P

2002-12-13T21:22:00.000-08:00

oh wow! it's been FOREVER since i last blogged! hehehe =P hmmm... too lazy... and too much drama going on i guess... heheheh =P hmmm... OMIGOSH! tonight's trip to foodworx was SOOOOO much fun! =D well a c t u a L L y. . . . . ALL our trips to foodworx today were AWESOME *big smile* =D hehehe... all five {*5*} of them! hahah... let's see... recap of my day... this morning... andi woke me up and i

2002-12-11T14:55:00.000-08:00

EWWW =S that's UGLY! *ugh* back to studying for mmw =(

2002-12-10T00:45:00.000-08:00

hahah =D i feel so special when people mention me in their blogs {aim, lex} =D I AM SOOOOO JEALOUS OF AIM! maaan! ive been deprived WAY LONGER than YOU! you dont have to go home yet! me first! hahah =P but they way i see it... *ahem* M&M gets there like a day before i do... sooooo =P i wont be spending my time waiting for him to come... hehehe... i'll just "run into him" =P i'm SOOO glad i live

2002-12-09T01:03:00.000-08:00

joke: {courtesy of kevin} A boy was at a public pool. The lifeguard blew his whistle at the boy and yelled, "Hey! Don't pee in the pool!" The boy replied, "But everybody does it!" "Not from the diving board!" shouted the lifeguard. LoL =P

2002-12-08T15:07:00.000-08:00

ewww i'm green =S yucky! heheheh

2002-12-08T03:08:00.000-08:00

something to think about... *ponder*

2002-12-08T01:47:00.000-08:00

Lalalalalalalalalala =D sorry... hahah... hmmm... writing test this morning... hahah... i kinda got lost going to my testing room... LoL =P that's what i get for not checking what room number i'm in before i left =P hahah oops... eventually found it... hehehe... i was kinda the last one... =O oops... yah... a test at 10 AM on a SATURDAY! golly! and i had to take it WITHOUT coffee! gosh... the ONE

2002-12-07T12:30:00.000-08:00

I MISS MY BABY! =D heheheh... hmmm *sigh* after all the drama sh*t and stress of the past t w o w e e k s ? ? ? or however long it's been... yesterday was HELLA nice! kept a BIG SMILE on mah face the rest of the day/night whatever... hehehe =D cleared up all that sh*t and i still feel bad about it all... i feel/felt like the BIGGEST B*TCH *sob* but i'm glad everything's mmkay ohkay now =) i'm

2002-12-05T16:13:00.000-08:00

LoL was reading the iLiad... fell asleep for like 10 minutes... read like a sentence of the iLiad... LoL then read Cosmo heheh =P here's a few excerpts that "tickled my fancy" =P hahahah... that's such a cute saying =P heheheh No matter how hard you try {and you will}, you cannot lick your own elbow. A man can burn 8 calories unclasping your bra using two hands. With one hand, it's 12. And if

2002-12-05T01:10:00.000-08:00

gah you just gotta hate it when sh*t doesnt go your way...

2002-12-04T21:37:00.000-08:00

copy-and-paste from my convo with lex =P {hi lex!} me: dont spend anymore money on me me: imma feel bad! lex: its cool lex: dun feel bad lex: y u feel bad me: cuz you're spending money on me lex: awww lex: i do that to ne1 i carez about lex: emer, my sisters parents, u, ya knoe lex: if wat i do puts a smile on ur face this holiday season and New Year den to me its money well spent for the people

2002-12-04T11:21:00.000-08:00

it's rare that i'm ever at a loss for words... off the top of my head i can only think of two before now... one time was a year ago yesterday... well not exactly a year ago yesterday... but it was the tuesday... or was it monday... i think it was tuesday... maybe wednesday... LoL nonetheless... it was sometime this week... the week we got back from thanksgiving break... i was left speechless... i

2002-12-03T23:04:00.000-08:00

Your the thong. Your the spunky one out of all friends. You keep having fun till it kills you. You always except a challenge and never back down. You love taking risks and you hold nothing back. Which underwear are you? hahaha coincidence? luck? hahah LoL guess my personality matches the underwear i love to wear =P YaY! hahah =D hahah... hmmm =P ouch! what the?!? hahah =O

2002-12-02T10:14:00.000-08:00

i'm so confused... i dont know how to feel... how to act... what to say... what to do... i wish everything could just go back to the way they were... but unfortunately my wishes rarely come true... and i keep running into complications... there are always things messing up all the good things that i had/have... thought i had/have... *sigh* i was talking to... and they were saying how it's just

2002-12-02T00:32:00.000-08:00

*sigh* one drama issue cleared up... i dont even know how many more to go... right now... ONE is my MAIN concern... but i'm not really TRYING to clear that one up... im thinking... just let it clear up by itself... just HELP it a little... heheh... *sigh* did nothing productive since i got back to my room... hahah... oh well *shrugs* i'm going to sleep early... arent you proud of me =D but i have

2002-11-30T18:28:00.000-08:00

mmkay just kidding... hahaha =P well here i am southside in chula vista... i've been here all weekend {which didnt doesnt seem as long as it should feel... but i guess that can be taken as partially a good thing... being that it means im busy doing things rather than getting bored and counting down the hours til i unfortunately have to return to class... hahaha} what was i saying? oh yah... so i

2002-11-30T18:18:00.000-08:00

i think blogger's having posting issues ='(

2002-11-26T01:53:00.000-08:00

*sigh* just when i thought i was so sure of myself and where my feelings lie... sh*t like this happens... it's my fault for getting myself into this sh*t in the first place... but gah dang... i have no f*cking clue anymore... i thought i had everything figured out... but now that i know i dont... it feels like sh*t... numb... lacking all feeling... all i know is... i dont plan on wasting my time

2002-11-24T00:19:00.000-08:00

gah... i feel like sh*t... ='( i have no idea why... i've just been so out of it all day... i guess i just have so much on my mind... there's way too much going on... and it's a b*tch not really having anyone to talk to about all this... i mean... yah... my roomates are awesome most of the time... and i talk to my mom on the phone all the time... and most people i talk to online are incredibly

2002-11-23T03:05:00.000-08:00

gah... i just got home... it's... 3:01 AM... hahah... hmmm... *sigh* it was fun... did nothing productive... as usual... didnt wanna break the trend i had going all week... hahah... we're going to the beach tomorrow... i'm kinda hesitant though... it got cold this afternoon... so i heard... i kinda didnt go to my two afternoon classes... jeez... i NEED to start going to class! it's worse than my

2002-11-22T11:05:00.000-08:00

hahahah... check out my results for The Temptation Test Rationalizer: Your scale definitely tips to the "indulge me" side. If you really want something, you will always find a way to rationalize having it. {hahah, that is SO me =P *blushes*} Hence your name — the Rationalizer. Don't get us wrong, you have great intentions and definitely exercise your self-control when a temptation could have a

2002-11-21T00:08:00.000-08:00

maaan... my computer's hella slow tonight... =S stupid eeash... shout-outs have been updated... if you're reading this and you're not on the list... tag my board, e-mail, or IM me... i KNOW more than just those people read this... but if you wanna go and be all secretive about it... be my guest... hahah =P a n y w h o ... t.g.i.f. tomorrow... well technically in 6 minutes... 5 now... but yah...

2002-11-19T20:56:00.000-08:00

this is quiz really sucked... hahah =P take it and you'll see what i mean... How ASIAN are you? Brought to you by the good folks at sacwriters.com. anywho... <-- man, i've been sayin that a lot lately... hmmm... =P calc midterm went semi-well... dont know if well enough... but a helluva lot bet better than the first one... heheheh smallville's comin on soon... so imma hafta cut this short...

2002-11-19T14:31:00.000-08:00

i swear... i must have a f*cking sign on my forehead that EVERY F*CKING GUY can read that says "please screw me over" sh*t =S it's the second time it's happened to me... i mean sh*t! what's the likelihood of it happening TWICE to the SAME D*MN PERSON?!? jeez... obviously when it comes to me... the pain of one time is NEVER enough... gotta go and pull that sh*t TWICE! =S *blah* and what makes it

2002-11-19T03:56:00.000-08:00

what a crazy day... minimally productive... did some mmw reading instead of reviewing calc... tsk tsk tsk bad me =( hmmm went and watched the meteor shower with andi, mich, jackie, and ash... that was hella fun =P me and mich were like mad cracking up the whole time... it was too crazy =P singing britney spears lying on blankets and towels outside in the freezing cold on frosty wet field it's the

2002-11-19T03:42:00.000-08:00

hahah lookie this thing nona sent me... it's about your birthmonth... mine being JANUARY *ahem ahem cough cough* for those of y'all who dont know! =P JANUARY fifteenth {15} * Ambitious and serious {i guess?} * Loves to teach and be taught {uuuhhhmmm sometimes...} * Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses {hahah guilty} * Likes to criticise {guilty again} *

2002-11-18T21:15:00.000-08:00

hahah check this: "The Amazons... were a nation of female warriors... They were said to have reproduced through periodic orgies with a nearby nation of men, and then to have kept only their female progeny, destorying their sons. The right breast of each daughter was removed to prevent it interfering with her drawing a bow in warfare..." interesting stuff huh... =P hahah crazy madness... a n y w

2002-11-17T23:39:00.000-08:00

gah dang... i needa start thinking before i say/type some of the things i say/type =S *bLaH* it's getting me into trouble... well not trouble... predicaments... no... not predicaments... uncomfortable situations??? =X *sigh* me and my mouth/fingers? =T *bLaH* =( i just want someone to sit/lie here with me and just hold my hand/put their arm around me/give me a really long hug and just tell me

2002-11-17T16:44:00.000-08:00

oh maaan... what a weekend... jeez... went out with josh last night... went to like a million gazillion theatres looking for one where harry potter wasn't sold out... hahaha... found one in grossmont... FINALLY hahah... sat in front of these REALLY weird people... man... that lady was like HELLA old and she was like mad laughing everytime something REMOTELY funny happened... and they were things

2002-11-16T15:34:00.000-08:00

blah blah blah blah blah... the past coupla days have been pretty nice... i've had some REALLY nice convos with certain ppL online... and i know i know... IM convos aren't really credible... but still... y'know... =T it's been really nice... makes me miss yoko even more... i already got plans for tues and wed... hahaha =P i know i know... it's a TAD bit early... but it's nice to know i have

2002-11-13T11:16:00.000-08:00

{i should be studying...} What Sign of Affection Are You? brought to you by Quizilla it's red =D popular?!? me? nooo... heheh but it's pink =D

2002-11-13T00:35:00.000-08:00

more depressing stuff... mich is feeling like crap today too... so it's all just the whole vibe of the apartment i guess =( cried when i got back from class... took a nap... woke up... cried again... read, worked out, ate, showered, more reading... smallville came on {sad episode} cried... did calc, mom called, cried, hung up, cried more... jeez... this is stupid... half the times i wasnt even

2002-11-12T14:23:00.000-08:00

*ugh* i feel like sh*t again... {so what's new...} jeez... i'm so tired of school {already} it's pathetic... i'm ready to go home and see my mommy again... although she didnt make me feel too good about myself when i called her last night... jeez... why is it that lately when i talk to the people i care most about thinking they're gonna make me feel better... all they do is make me feel WORSE ='(

2002-11-11T03:15:00.000-08:00

went to chula vista last night... just chilled there... talked to my cousin... cousin-bonding... heheheh... how cute =P that was after a yummy dinner at in and out =D i didnt eat fries =) i'm a good gurl heheheh *glowing halo* went to church this morning... well technically yesterday morning... =T but anyway... sunday morning... saw kris's "girl" cute body i must admit... big boobs, big butt,

2002-11-09T16:15:00.000-08:00

wow... weather's so crappy =( that's not why i typed wow... =T hahah hmmm... *sigh* i'm ready to go home now! i miss my baybee... and my mommy... =) hmmm... me and mich went to ralph's and utc today... we talked "girl-talk" aka "sex-talk" everything's all cleared up now... and i feel MUCH better about everything i was tripping about last night... it just feels good to get it all out y'know... but

2002-11-09T02:22:00.000-08:00

maaan, dont you hate it when you say something... then you think about what you said and you wanna take it back cuz it came out all wrong... but it sounded so right at that instant? =T *bLaH* and all the things that i'm so secure about... that i'm comfortable with... that other people arent... it's like i'm on the outside looking in... not understanding a world that i used to be a part of... and

2002-11-09T01:43:00.000-08:00

didnt go to chem AGAIN today... tsk tsk tsk... =( bad me... and i didnt even workout today =P slept from like 11 til like 1 instead =) well at least the sleeping kept me from eating... it was sprinkling/raining all day today... =( oh how gloomy... went and watched 8 mile... had dinner at islands... yum... mushroom and cheese burger with no bread =P heheheh... called my daddy and mommy... they're

2002-11-07T23:19:00.000-08:00

MAAAN ='( there is WAY too much isht going down here =( yah, so... after crying 3 times today... for no frickin reason... i just like crying... i've been feeling totally just numb all day... =( numb and empty... i need a hug... a BIG hug... and i'll feel all better... francis's e-mail cheered me up a bit =) he can always make me smile... prancis is the coolest =D hmmm... yah gotta attribute the

2002-11-07T14:25:00.000-08:00

damn, first drama session of suite 1711 ='( well i guess it's not that bad... it has already been 7 weeks... but still y'know... it would've been nice if we could've avoided drama altogether... but guess that's life =T hmmm... i'm going to try and stay neutral throughout this recount of the present predicament... i'm GREATLY emphasizing TRY =T cuz i myself have done this a million times before...

2002-11-05T12:13:00.000-08:00

check this out! so cool =P and this is pretty funny =P hahahah...

2002-11-05T00:01:00.000-08:00

dayum! it's been like ten million years since i really bLogged... =P well not really... considering that i usually blog EVERYDAY i missed the whole weekend... so that was long =P hmmm... heheheh check out this test i took... "What kind of sexy are you?" on Emode... here's my results =P Sweet 'n' Sexy You're not overt about your sexuality, but you're not purposely hiding it either — two traits

2002-11-03T01:16:00.000-08:00

hmmm catch-up catch-up =T *pause to clean up my room* =P ohkay... nevamynd... i'm pooped... i'm goin tah sleep... i'll bLoG when i come back on later to talk some sense into kevin =T {yoko drama never ends...} tsk tsk tsk *yawn* i miss my baby =( and my daddy =P heheheh but HE's coming back =) yay! more shopping =P hahah *muah*

2002-10-31T00:49:00.000-08:00

school went SOOO much better today =D *sigh* mmw was crazy though... shoot... we had MAD notes to take in that class! he just kept throwing all this information at us... jeez... i didnt catch everything =( usually he'll like throw a fact at us... tell a story to let it sink in... but no... not this time... just fact after fact after fact... pausing for a split second every paragraph to catch his